it's kinda early to do some breadtalk research..
when i'm supposed to be sleeping!
gotta wake early to type quotation than wait for return PO number and change it into invoice..
hey i can do office work haha.
waiting for Plan A's reply,
if it's a yes than ok, smooth journey & i'm seen as a cold-hearted devil.
nvm..
if it's a no, PLAB B; stick to the current & ren ming..
but i dun want >.<
why?
apart from trust,
i foresee the likelihood of conflict.
there's NO WAY members refuses to talk to each other,
NO WAY.
if i dun want someone, i'll offend the friend.
there's 2 packages of them T.T
sigh...
i'd rather leave and let them decide on their own instead of me deciding for them,
i'd rather not offend anyone during the process of projects but right from the start,
by leaving w shijia.
yes i am blur and STM type but,
i think a lot, good & bad.
anything is possible.
this is the 2nd time i plan to take flight,
hardly ever in my life when it comes to such thing,
cos i never heck care about other's feelings.
i wont forget last night's decisions.
usually,
i fight w situations and believe i can overcome anything,
that i can try to motivate anyone & get what i feel is the best for all.
after Apel class yesterday,
doubts pour all over me.
i apologize to the people affected,
like i'd said i'd rather protect 1 person than everyone..
i only have 2 hands & a brain to make decision.
it'll be hell if i offend anymore pple in the process of doing projects.
in the end,
i will only offend myself for making so many pple sad, angry, frustrated etc.
cos i'm wrong to stay in the 1st place.
the the face i dun mind tagged as someone who doesnt keep promise,
or someone who allows my logic to top over emotions.
i have my own fears of things happening,
not in project but among pple,
including myself.
sorry aishan & ting,
that i actually THINK LIKE THAT.
it's only an alternative,
& i dun wish to be seen as the middle figure;
it's a pleasure thank you for your trusts,
but it's a nightmare cos i make decisions,
cos i'm the one pple approach to.
i'll go crazy worrying too much,
more than myself.
no wonder i am so blur & STM,
cos i lost too much brain cells worrying about others.
is this my life?
if Plan A fails,
i would have to say;
this IS my destined life.
this is shaRon.
farked haha -.-
bottomline;
am i a good or bad person?
do i think for others or myself?
it's for u to decide,
pls sms 90300538,
every sms costs 5 cents, or 10 cents whatever.
ok lame hahaha =p
