i am upset,
so sad when a person learns her lesson,
only by mouth and not the heart..
only overnight,
or perhaps for a week or so..
no matter how many ways i try to show my affection,
there is always somebody more important..
isn't it?
i'm not jealous of not getting your attention,
you dun have the time and energy to anyway.
i just wanna be remembered,
as one of your closest blood.
yet,
you think i am a liar at times,
and that i'm a burden to your own fantasies and recreation.
and the troubles you've caused me,
don't you feel a slight bit of guilt at all?
gadgets that is equals to my 2nd brain is not something as simple as you think my dear.

i shall keep this nasty incident to myself..
you'll hate me forever if i didnt.
and old fickle-minded me might regret it too..
i'll just remain old.. and act stupid,
should i?

today sadness is written all over my face =(
i'm just a dummy beside you i guess,
since our birth,
since that very fucking day when you started school,
when you changed,
wholly..
into another person.

until you provoke me again,
i might unleash the devil in me,
for your good.
i cant' forgive and forget anymore for another 18 years that will destroy the rest of your life.